我只是想要。。。。
想要什么？
我自己也不知道。。。
只是想要一种新鲜感吧。。。。
一直听着重复的曲目，为什么歌手都不爱一首一首出？
好让我能听腻了旧换另一首歌，
只是想要一种安定感吧。。。
想要待在自己熟悉的空间，做自己喜欢的事，呼着自我的气息。。。
这样就不会有恼人的事。。。。
只是想要一种矛盾吧。。。
想要很多人知道，可是又不想太张扬。。。
我就是那种人。。。
想要得太多，可是听人家说，
上天是公平的，给了你一样，就会取走另一样。。。
那，我可以选择吗？
我不要快乐，我不要方便，我不要团聚。。。
快乐，令痛苦更真实，心痛更难复原。。。
方便，令麻烦接踵而来，令人们忘了原来的字迹。。。
团聚，令离别更快来临，令不舍更加不舍。。。。
每每有了就不想放弃。。。。
人性是如此，我也是如此。。。
人真的不好当。。。。
i just wanna say thank you and sorry!
Is been a long time that human races forgot the meaning of this two words. It seems to be the hardest words to express. 500 years of history doesn’t teach human races many things but wars and rudeness. Don’t ever thinks that this is a gift, but is a pandora’s box that brings endless uncertainty.
I wanna thank you, mummy! You just stand there when i need you. Sorry for my naive and rudeness. Thank you, chicken and mosquito, you all are nice persons….Thank you, taman sajati pals, you all are also nice nice peoples, god will loves you all. Thank you …..THANK YOU….Merci beaucoup.
Dunno since when i like to console myself maybe is because wait too long but no one do that ba.
Today went to a fren house for dinner, s a nice nice food with a table full of nice nice peoples….Thanks again and sorry for not helping much….
Gimme gimme,gimme gimme chances to say thanks you and sorry….
Hola, just a plain blog….dun expect too much…..wakaka
Dunno since when I start to worry about the examination…
Mayb s juz my imagination gua…
But all seem so real tat I dun even know can I overcome it de….
I dun wanna be the reason why….
I dun wanna be the exception….
I dun wanna meet you again ever and ever again….
Maybe tat is because I not brave enough, or maybe juz tat u r better then me, o juz….I juz cant face you again…or maybe there is no maybe ….many things just come and go, it’s time to let go…I been telling myself again and again but will I learn?
Cheering and cheering keep me up but someday I afraid too….there are so many happening around me that sometimes I just dun wanna face it…..
Maybe just I think too much….
Dun think so much…It’s just a matter of time, sooner or later, I’ll find my way!!!(N times edi)
Full of garlic smell… Just because I cooked just now do not means that I have to bring a souvenir back!! I have made a dinner to my lovely housemates and it was a good feedback…. Wakaka… Maybe I can cook next time if and only if I feel so… There comes the same smells again, luckily, I’m not a vampire, if not I’ll die because of my own hands!! When and when can the smells gone? Keep on asking but no one answer, maybe the answer is in my mind but I just need a person to console me. Do not pamper yourself again, told myself. Persuiting something that is hard to achieve is miserable but that’s what life is…. When people are getting tired, they used to think of rest and vice versa. When people are getting lazy, they will carry on with the laziness….sound funny but is true! That’s what happens to me…I have rotted in my house for about 3 days but still do not want to move maybe because I just want to be like that….sometimes things just happened and I do not even know how to handle it. I hate being like that. I want to learn but just do not have the intention to do so. And that suck! Phew….it’s just my own confusion, or it’s just an excuse? I do not have that kind of American time to think of that. I just want to stay alone and rot…… When there is a ‘will’, there is ‘my way’!!!! Just follow my heart and listen to my heart cause he will lead me to the way, right way? Wrong way? Just a shortcut? It doesn’t matter because I just want it to be like that. Full of garlic smells? Doesn’t matter….who care? As long as I want to cook, that the price I willingly to pay!!!
在发呆期间，去打工了好一段时间，
看到这里的事物，
在遥远的境内，
J精灵看到了不一样的自己。。。。
不再想谈恋爱了，可能越来越喜欢冰箱，
把河马放进冰箱有几个步骤？
把大象放进冰箱又有几个步骤？
可是，
把我的爱情放进冰箱有几个步骤呢?
只有3个吧。。。打开，放进去，关上。
所以顺手收进了冰箱里，
温度刚好是4度C，
人家说这是牛奶的最佳温度，
那，
我的爱情应该会在最好的状态，
等到谁打开冰箱时就能品尝到，
还是冰箱最好了，
是谁发明的，要好好为你鼓掌！！！
那，
还是同样的冰箱，
要好好保存住我的爱情哦！
没有人，没有人
真的没有人，
再看下去也是没有人。。。
静静的，慢慢的，闲闲的，
度过人称的佳节，人家新年关我X事，
突然可是发现自己越来越喜欢独处。。。。。
聊天好像有点遥远，不想踏进人类的世界。。。。
精灵本来就不属于人类，
每每到逼不得已的时候，才会飘到厨房找吃的，这点真得很不像人类的。。。
手上都是看过遍的杂志，小说什么的都看到脱皮了，
可是我还是有活动的丫。。。。
习惯对这片电子板聊天，
感觉非常虚幻又非常真实，可能这就是现代人的沟通方式，
没想过要适应，根本就不是我的生活方式，
我还是喜欢没事到人家家里聊家常，
是时候收拾掉了满地的心情了。。。
堕落也该有个限度吧！？！
那，
问自己：几时要读书呢 ?哈哈。。。等到我突然看到书吧。。。
又是一天了，时钟没坏，只是我坏了。。。
*脱窗：发呆到眼睛无神时的境界，通常发生在极度疲劳或者极度无聊的时候（取自J精灵词典）
